Zetsubou

"Plane o plane up in the sky
take me with you to a place up high.
A place where my emotions will not follow
so my heart will not fall in deep sorrow."

Zetsubou, however you might write it in japanese.
Despair.
Something that started roaming around in my heart again with no haste to leave. Eating away the thing i tried to hide so hard for myself so i can be happy again. I feel like im stuck in time, 5 years already. Thought about it a lot what makes me feel this way... But then again, what am i trying to fix?